Thursday, July 2, 2020

Of Broken Hearts and Solitude


Lately, we have all been reading sad posts on social media, talking about self-pity, feelings of being unloved and being alone even in the presence of the people who should be there to love them. Lately, all we hear from the news are human sufferings, hatred, and fears. Sometimes.. if not often times, we are all so overwhelmed with what is happening to our world and even in our own life. It is a sad world… it is a sad reality that some even try to end their life because of all this chaos happening around us.

Almost all my life, I am amazed at how most of my friends, even acquaintances, would suddenly open up to me about their own loneliness and hang-ups. I am flattered, but at the same time, I feel like I am feeling how they feel and I always wish that I could do something about their sufferings. I remember the days when I was so young… always wishing that I could be a fairy who could just use a wand to make others happy. And despite that, I am one of the many people who could cast deep sadness and even heartbreaking loneliness to people around me.

There is always a shadow of uncertainty even in our own triumphant times… there is always something that is missing in our deepest soul no matter how much we try to appreciate what we have. There is a time when we feel that we could not turn to anyone at all… we feel alone, and suddenly, the world around us seems to have turned upside down and we are left groping in the dark. I remember a line that said that “the loneliest emotion that could ever happen to someone is feeling alone in the company of the people who are supposed to love them.” And it is true, whether we admit it or not, there will always be a time when we are craving to cry out loud but no one will ever listen. There are times when we just need someone there to listen without judgment, and even without trying to understand… these are the moments when we just want to be comforted with a hug or a pat on the shoulder, just because no words nor any kind of understanding can comfort us, only to feel so much more alone because no one will be there to do these things for us.

You may be wondering why I write all these… all about being broken and being lonely. In this time of chaos, in the midst of Covid19, we can not deny the fact that we feel all these. We are anxious, we are scared.. and to top it all up, we have our own struggles that at times, no single soul can understand. I am writing this to let a lonely soul know, that he is NOT ALONE. The world is just too overwhelmed. Yes, we are all overwhelmed at what is happening around us that we often forget to let others feel our presence. We are all feeling alone at times because we are all too busy coping with our own struggles. We always feel incomplete but we should rest with the fact that we are not the only ones feeling that way and it would help a lot not to rely on others to be a shoulder to lean on because they are also struggling like we do and we have myriad coping styles.

Sometimes, we need to realize that even our toughest friend who is always able to lend us a hand each time we fall, also needs comfort and loving gestures. Sometimes, we have to be aware that the listening ear to us, also needs someone to listen, and the arms that comfort us also needs the same comforting.

In this most trying times, it is a courageous act to choose to go on with life. It is the time to realize that we should start relying on ourselves and start loving what and who we are because there will always be times when we will have no one but ourselves to comfort us. And as we do that, we should be comforted by the fact that there is that invincible loving arms who listen to us especially when no single man would. We have an omnipotent God who can give us all, and we should stop expecting things from other people because HE never fails to help the ones who help themselves. Whenever we need a place to rest, we should go running in HIS loving embrace, pick our broken pieces, and brave life once again. Keep crying as much as we could, but we should choose life after all.

This life is truly tough but hush your heart, rest your spirit because God has made us tougher than life. We just need to realize how beautifully we are made with a creative mind and a courageous heart. Stop expecting others to love and listen to you. Start listening to HIM, start feeling His presence in your life. There is no guarantee that you will be happy, but there is a guarantee of security and love, and that someday, you will find joy and happiness in your heart. 

We are all warriors trying to cope with life.  May you enjoy this video and may you be courageous to learn to love your self enough... ALWAYS.